Valentine's Day, bah, humbug.

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."

Happy Valentine's Day. I woke up this morning, and not realizing what day it is, subconsciously dressed in black. Today is apparently a day of mourning. It's been quite a few years since I haven't had a Valentine's Day date, and in all honesty, I don't seem to care all that much. I have a mid-term tonight, which is occupying my mind right now.. I've also already been to the Melting Pot this week, so all is good in the world. Cupid can kiss my fat ass.

Did anyone happen to see the last 2 episodes of "Grey's Anatomy??" What a great show. If all of the other episodes sucked (and they don't), this is not the one to miss. Drama, drama, drama. I actually had a semi-discussion with Joey this morning about Meredith and Dr. McDreamy: He's calling Meredith a slut and Dr. McDreamy a prick because he cheated/is cheating on his wife. However, since he doesn't watch the show, he doesn't know the whole story. McDreamy found his wife in bed with his bestfriend and left her. He moved to Chicago (I think that's where they are?) and met and fell for Meredith. The wife comes looking for him and wants him to forgive her indiscretions, which he does.. sort of. He leaves Meredith and stays with his wife, even though we all know he's in love with Meredith. Now, my question is this: how wrong is it to fall for someone else? Obviously, cheating is wrong, but should you stay in an unhappy relationship just for commitment's sake? And, if you're in a committed relationship (married, or not) and the other person has a temporary lapse of judgment, how easy is it to forgive them? What if it only happened once? What if it's happened several times? Could you forgive them?

Personally, I'd chop his balls off. Heh. Just kidding. I don't think I could forgive even one indiscretion, though. There would always be this lack of trust and paranoia in the back of my mind. Where is he?? Who is he with?? I won't stay in a relationship for commitment's sake, marriage or not. I've heard about a few married men, with children, that cheat on their wives on a regular basis. This is apparently normal to them. They claim to love their wives, but just want something different. Are we not made to be monogamous? Does true love really exist, if this is the case? People are always going to want something different. If you have a ham & cheese sandwich everyday for the next five years, eventually, you will get sick of it. Why bother getting married, then?